Thursday, April 2, 2009
I HAVE DISCOVERED MY PARENTS' PAST
Dear Blog,
You would never believe what I found out today. Finally, I got it out - I found out why my name was the only one not on the colour chart. I found out why I was the only one named by Eve's (deceased) sister. I do not understand this. It is all very confusing to me still. Even Caddy lied to me. Just to let you know, MY REAL MUM ISNOT EVE. IT IS HER SISTER. MY REAL MUM IS EVE'S SISTER.TWIN SISTER.
You would never believe what I found out today. Finally, I got it out - I found out why my name was the only one not on the colour chart. I found out why I was the only one named by Eve's (deceased) sister. I do not understand this. It is all very confusing to me still. Even Caddy lied to me. Just to let you know, MY REAL MUM ISNOT EVE. IT IS HER SISTER. MY REAL MUM IS EVE'S SISTER.TWIN SISTER.
I know, you guys are puzzled too. Eve tried her very best to defend herself by saying that she was " waiting for the right time." Well, I am not getting any younger, am I? My aunt, I mean real mother, Eve's twin, had died in a car crash. Very devastatingly. Fortunately, grandad was visiting that day, and he brought me to England safely. He had taken all of my belongings with him, every crayon, every scrap of paper. Yet, I was crying uncontrollably although I had no clue about my previous caregiver. Grandad could sense it, I just knew it. He made a trip back to Siena, to retrieve the forgotten.Unfortunately, Grandad got into a little accident on the way, and the rest is unknown. With my luck, I should not even be alive right now.
This is Siena , my birth place! It is so magnificent that I could not resist but put this picturesque photo of Siena on my blog. Seeing this photo, I cannot help but feel so proud of being born here! :)
Finally, I found out the truth about who my family was, and more importantly, who I was.I never thought that everything would be this confusing. Eve, Bill and all of my siblings have kept such a big secret from me, and it will take a long time for me to forgive them.
Puzzled & hurt,
Saffy
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WHY WASN'T MY NAME ON THE COLOUR CHART
Dear blog,
This is my first time posting on this blog that Sarah helped me create. :)
There is a colour chart pinned up on the kitchen wall. Mummy Eve and Daddy Bill pinned it up. It has been there since I was eight. To me, they are as familiar to me as nursery rhymes and I always fall asleep to the list of colours. Everytime I look at it I can see Indigo, Rose and Caddy's "colours" almost immediately - But not mine.
This is my first time posting on this blog that Sarah helped me create. :)
There is a colour chart pinned up on the kitchen wall. Mummy Eve and Daddy Bill pinned it up. It has been there since I was eight. To me, they are as familiar to me as nursery rhymes and I always fall asleep to the list of colours. Everytime I look at it I can see Indigo, Rose and Caddy's "colours" almost immediately - But not mine.
Our Family's colour chart. Oh where oh where is my name? I guess I have to persevere and keep looking for it though I have tried a thousand times.
Even if I looked over and over again, I cannot find my name on that chart! When I asked my family to help me find it, Caddy was busy painting her hamster's feet, Rose kept screaming. At least Indigo tried to help me, saying that "Saffron's a Yellow ". A health visitor came to our house and kept asking Mum how she keeps her patience. It made me quite annoyed. Everyone was ignoring me even though I kept asking them to help me find my name on the colour chart.
I do not know why but when the health visitor asked if I knew about "it", the whole house became quiet. When I questioned Mum and the health visitor, they just said it was nothing. But I am still quite suspicious.
Rose kept sucking on this paint which was apparently Caddy's Yellow Ochre non-toxic paint. At least when the health visitor left, Mum gave Rose a crust of bread and she became quiet again, fortunately.
I asked Mum why my name was not on the chart before bedtime, but she just said that Saffron was a lovely colour and told her that her late sister had named Saffron.
That night, I kept having dreams of sunny place which was quiet and enclosed. There were little pointed trees and I could hear the sound of water. Caddy did not remember it, but she did say it was not her, it was me. This to me is terribly confusing. I mean, why is my name not on the colour chart when all my other siblings are. And why was I the only one whose name was chosen by Mum's sister? This is very strange. I got to go, will post more later.
Labels: car crash, colour chart, Eve's Twin sister, Grandad, photos, Siena, the truth
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